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Happy Chinese New Year!

2012-01-22T07:15:00.000-08:00

I'm Just A Shadow

2012-01-20T21:30:00.000-08:00

Friends are easily made everywhere, anytime... However, to search for a true friend is as good as finding a needle in a haystack... I am just a shadow... Often being neglected to a point that I felt that I do not exist in this darkened world, a world filled with lies and conspiracy...

Smart-Smart Friendship
People nowadays do differentiate others based on their intelligence level. They seem to only search for others that are of equal intelligence or higher, so that they are worthy to fit in a particular clique. In my opinion, I guess they are somewhat people who have low self-esteem and they have already developed a sense of fear, fear of being rejected out of the smarter cliques. They always despised the 'non-smart' groups, feeling superior over them, doing things their own ways because they feel that they are always right...

Achievements = ~~Efforts, Hardwork~~; Popularity, Bootlick
Once I believed that by working hard , putting utmost efforts will I be able to gain recognition and respect. Looking at the award recipients receiving scholarships awards in schools inspired and encouraged to work hard for it. Mainly because I believed that I also can be one of them.

This mindset dashed when I was serving my National Service... Although working diligently is always being emphasised, the fact is that it NEVER haapen... The awards to commemorate soldiers for their outstanding performances during their service are often being awarded to people who are of high profile, people who are of good terms with the higher authorities... Aren't these awards supposed to be given to recipients who contribute greatly to National Service, an assurance and encouragement to motivate others to work harder?

They even NEGLECT their own Shadows!

When you are walking along a small, dark and eerie alley, with only a faint overhead lamp dimly light up the place... With no one besides you... Only the shadow casted on the floor is accompany you, giving you the guts to carry on walking to the othr end of the alley.

Do they even know that shadows are companions that never leave anyone alone even when you are feeling down and out? People always neglect their own shadows because they find it worthless, something that have zero value...

Mutual Respect = Building Blocks
Having mutual respect is crucial to construct a world full of happiness, in which everyone is equal. Mutual respect between each other are the building blocks to create the vibrancy of our contemporary society. Insensitivity of people in their words often weaken the cohesiveness of friendship bonds, thus conflicts always arises, though they can be prevented.

I am Just a Shadow...
I always help others simply because I feel that everyone deserves the same rights as me. However, people think otherwise. They treat me as a tool to manipulate for their own selfish interests. When they are enjoying, they casted me aside as though I am just a piece of junk lying on the ground. When they need help, only then will they talk to me nicely, hoping that I will assist them.

It is what I refer to as 过河拆桥。比喻达到目的后，就把曾经帮助自己的人抛开。

Human Behaviour Towards Teasing

2012-01-07T00:30:00.000-08:00

Through human interactions, teasing comes in two major forms, playful and hurtful. Nowadays, people normally tease on matters such as appearances, weight and abilities. When one dislikes being teased, it may be regarded as a form of harassment, bullying or emotional abuse. If done frequently, it can become humiliation.

Verbal bullying can be seen almost everytime even through a short conversation. This type of behavior intend to distract, irritate, and annoy the recipient. Hence, the recipient often feel dejected and humiliated.
Often, these leads to the recipient being rebellious and it is also another factor that contribute to the cause of conflicts between each other.

I have a friend who is always being teased around by the others who find it pleasing and fun. However, he dislikes that mainly because he does not want to quarrel with them. Normally, he ignores but now he cannot tolerate them because it becomes much more frequent and the degree of irritants seemingly increase drastically.

As I had a coversation with him, he seemed to have developed hatred towards them. The extreme behaviour of violence and anger that led him onto the path of disposition towards hostility against them.
I am convinced that his anger anger has already seeped into his heart and soul because he could not accept the harsh reality of life and was determined to punish them if he had a chance to do so.

Why can't we build a peaceful contemporary society where we can live with one another happily, everyone having mutual respect with each other, a vibrant society in which everyone being valued?

Happy New Year!!!

2011-12-31T21:23:00.000-08:00

First and foremost: Happy New Year!

This marks the end of Year 2011 and the beginning of Year 2012. May all be happy all the time, forget all the sorrows and work hard!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2011-12-24T22:09:00.001-08:00

Sadness - The Real Emotion

2011-12-17T02:22:00.000-08:00

Sadness is the expressiveness of sorrow or unhappiness whereas emotion is a part of consciousness that involves feeling. When one feels emotional, he is bound to be sad. Hence, emotion is often associated with sadness.

Music can bring about the emotions being locked up in one's heart. Sentimental music enables one to open up his heart to the feelings of others. Thus, mutual understanding between each other can be established. Also crying out your heart when you are upset can really lift your spirits up.

Do we have to accept the harsh reality of life and prevent our emotions to overwhelm and control our lives?
Can we really convert the pain we felt in our hearts into the strength and determination required for self-improvement in our lives?

Maybe I am feeling sad right now... Penning down my train of thoughts and pouring my sorrows into my blog so that I can lighten the weight of these burdens. But right now... I don't know what to add on... I...

Time, Space and Imperfection

2011-12-10T01:53:00.001-08:00

Time and space are often regarded as a branch of philosophy that can be classified as realism or non-realism... Time spent can never be reverted back... Events associated with it happen and end so fast like a river with flowing water...

Friendships bonded and broken so easily... Even best friends can become the worst foes over a trivial matter... Memories fade as time goes on... Before you even realised it, you have already grown up...

What if we can control time or time has become a currency? Should we spend it larvishly? Or helping the needy for the greater good?

Cyrus: "What's far will become near and the past will become present." Quietly emphathic Emotion, rock solid Willpower and Knowledge are the key assets to the creation of the perfect world. These three elements have to balance with each other like the ecosystem in order to remain longlasting... Because... Every living organisms depends on each other...

In order to shape into a perfect world... Do we really have to revert everything back to its original form, a space where none of us exists? Do time and space have to clash with each other so that a new world will be created? So that a new dimension will be opened? Like what Cyrus in Pokemon Platinum is trying to accomplish?

Even so, is there anyone capable of changing time and our environment that has already been depleted over time due to the consequences of technology? Are we even able to return to a pollution free environment like the Elin Forest in Maplestory? Back to the time when technology never exist?

If we can turn our clocks back to the past, will we want to slavage our space? By changing our fate? And correcting our mistakes? To make it perfect?

I Wish...

2011-11-19T02:45:00.001-08:00

I wish... I wish for many events to unfold in my life... Things like getting a degree, a stable job, a longlasting marriage... I am sure everyone else wishes too... For a better prospects in life... Do you know that we are wishing all the time?

Wish can be defined into various aspects: Achievements, happiness and materialistic gains. School children wishing for good grades even though they knew they will not fare well, young adults wishing for longlasting marriage and girls woshing to get accessories that they desires... It is happening all the time...

Shooting Stars has always thought to grant peoples' wishes because they are a very rare occurence and only last for a mere split second. I do wish that shooting star to appear right before my eyes so that my wish will come true...

Wish has always been taken advantage of. People down on luck wish that things will better for them tomorrow whereas wealthy people wish for even more fortune and a higher standard of living. Everyone wishes... But is it that fact that only wishes can aid them to achieve their objectives?

From my perspective,although I wish most of the time, I still do believe that hardwork is the main factor that determines whether I will attain my goals. I beleve that everyone should work towards what they have wished for... So that their wishes will come true...

Will my wish really come true?

I hope...

Moing On Aimlessly

2011-11-11T23:46:00.001-08:00

Gazing through the small window of my room... Though the window is small, yet what I see is the scenary of what people down the generations described... Life...

The vast variety of life forms convinced me of the biological cycle that has been performed by every individual organisms - The Survival of The Fittest.

Plants provide their own source of energy via photosynthesis, herbivores consume these plants, carnivores consume these preys whereas omnivores consume both plants and animals for energy. Energy is thus transferred from one point to another, down a chain. That is how an ecosystem remains longlasting and balanced out.

Everything is so systematic that all organisms seem to be doing things mindlessly... Maybe it is all about instincts, every organisms that are entitled to... in order to survive.

In our modern society, what has been preserved over the centuries is education. Everyone has been convinced that education is the only guidance to nurture us to be more knowledgeable and also to be a better person in life.

Although this mindset is acceptable and has been the role model for every individual to uphold, what goes out of hand is that people started to treat it as a routine. We followed through what has already been planned ahead for us and we are moving on like a mindless robot.

From the basic education to degrees, we learn but yet we do not understand the purpose and importance of gaining knowledge.

Are we working so hard because of the fear instilled upon us? The fear of being despised and deprived of a stable job due to a lack of qualifications?

We must work hard for ourselves and plan our own future and not the system to plan for us. We must understand the true meaning of life and what we are really fighting for...

Can we really break out of this vicious cycle?

Friends and its turmoil...

2011-11-04T20:32:00.000-07:00

In My Thoughts...
True friends are often viewed as invaluable, having hearts of gold... Individuals who gives mutual respect... Loves.. and cares about others... They are ideal in every aspects of our lives... But yet, they are rare...

What broke my Heart?
Friends are supposed to work hard together, sharing the burdens together and reaping the rewards of our efforts together... Yet, they kept these rewards for themselves at the expense of me, friend, for their own personal gains...

What am I being treated as?
I felt that I am just a disposable tool for them to manipulate, being approached when they seriously required assistance.. But thrown away and ignored after helping them, as though I am invisible, to the point that I thought I never even exist!

I am also just a substitute who only replace the empty slots when they do not have friends around them...

What am I feeling now?
I am pessimistic and convinced that many friends whom I hae made are not true friends. My heart shattered into smitherines... Like a fragile glass that landed onto a concrete ground from a high tower... And it cannot be restored to its original form... The scar will always remain even if its being patched... It will never be the same anymore...

What do I hope for?
I do hope for... Really do hope that...

Conclusion...
Does anyone really spare a thought for others?

Sleepwalking

2011-10-15T08:04:00.000-07:00

Sleepwalking is a disorder that occurs when people walk or do another activity while they are still asleep.

When an individual sleepwalks, he may sit up and look as though they are awake when he is actually sleeping soundly. he may get out of his cozy bed and walk around in his own room, or do some complex activities such as moving furniture, going to the bathroom, and dressing or undressing. He may even drive his own car while asleep!

The sleepwalking episode can be very brief (a few seconds or minutes) or 30 minutes and longer, but most episodes last for less than 10 minutes. If they are not disturbed, sleepwalkers will go back to sleep themselves. However, they may fall asleep in a different or even unusual place.

Some symptoms of sleepwalking include:
•Looking confused or disoriented when they wake up
•Not remembering the sleep walking episode when they wake up
•Sitting up and appearing awake during sleep
•Taking in sleep and saying things that do not make sense

Casestudy

A robust, married, 34-year-old auto mechanic walked during sleep off his second-floor porch and fell 20 feet into the bushes below. Helacerated his head and fractured his tenth thoracic vertebra. He recalled falling asleep that night at 11PM and awakening two and one-half hours later, while standing outside his front door, blood streaming down his face and a trail of blood leading back to the crushed bushes.

Neither this patient, his parents, nor his army barracks friends had been aware of sleepwalking episodes prior to his marriage at age 29. Since thattime, he admitted to sleepwalking about twice a year. During such episodes he had urinated in a closet, wandered outside a vacation home into the yard, and gotten back into the wrong bed (once with his children's 14-year-old babysitter).

When sleepwalking he was difficult to rouse, and he was later amnesic about his actions. They occurred early in the night and never more than once per night. No connections between the sleepwalking and increased life stress or alcohol intake were apparent. A moderate-to-heavy beer drinker, the patient had no history of blackouts. He denied a history of head trauma and there were no daytime symptoms of visual or olfactory hallucinations, fugue states, dÃ©jÃ vu, automatisms, hypergraphia, or hyperreligtosity. A sleep-deprived EEGwith nasopharyngeal leads during the hospitalization was entirely normal. A neurologic examination was withoutlocalizing findings. His psychiatric history was otherwise negative. The family's psychiatric and sleep disorders history was also negative.

After sustaining this injury, the patient and his wife were so frightened of his sleepwalking thatthey resolved to handcuff themselves together at night. Following discharge from the hospital, he planned to receive follow-up care at another facility.

Reference of casestudy:
Dr. Rauch is clinicalfellow inpsvchiatrv and Dr. Stern is assistant professor of psychiatry, both at the Harvard Medical School. Reprint requests to Dr. Stern, Warren 608, Massachusetts General
Hospital, Boston, MA 02114.

Prevention

•Avoid the use of alcohol or central nervous system depressants if you sleepwalk.
•Avoid getting too tired and try to prevent insomnia, because this can trigger a sleepwalking episode.
•Avoid or minimize stress, anxiety, and conflict, which can worsen the condition.

References

1.Chokroverty S. Sleep and its disorders. In: Bradley WG, Daroff RB, Fenichel GM, Jankovic J, eds. Neurology in Clinical Practice. 5th ed. Philadelphia, Pa: Butterworth-Heinemann Elsevier; 2008:chap 72.
2.Mahowald MW. Disorders of sleep. In: Goldman L, Ausiello D, eds. Cecil Medicine. 23rd ed. Philadelphia, Pa: Saunders Elsevier; 2007:chap 429.

Enlightenment

2011-10-07T05:21:00.000-07:00

Restriction... losing a sense of belonging... and... focus are attributes of what I am experiencing over this period of toughness... tough times of my "adventure" during National Service. The feeling of being locked up in a tiny metallic cage is awful and I do have the intention of running away... as far as my legs can bring me to...

But then, it was these pains that indirectly nurtured and shaped me to be a even better person... The lack of freedom and the shortage of time during this harsh period of time made me realised that I had not utilise my time efficiently... All these years I have wasted my precious time on many meaningless things, the wasted time can be used to broaden my knowledge, to mingle with my friends and foster friendship bonds and also to further strengthen my family ties...

I have been training with many heavy equipments such as chainsaws and Jerry Cans. To be frank, nobody really wants to carry these... But... These are the things indirectly boost my endurance and strength to a new level, the level that I have never even dearmt of...

Besides these, I have managed to speak out more often and make many friends... I have managed to understand the true meaning of working together, understanding the meaning of teamwork... Once I was someone who dislike physical training to become someone who trains daily to maintain a healthy lifestyle...

I guess it must be external motivation and enlightenment of my life...

Dilemma in determining lies and conspiracy

2011-09-30T09:13:00.000-07:00

Instinct is a form of aptitude that enables one to have an unalterable tendency in making a complex and specific response upon an environmental stimuli without involving reasons. An example is when one is facing a serious threat, he can only depend on his own instinct to eradicate this particular problem that may threaten him and even his life.

Dilemma is a problem that has been given with at least two possible solutions, yet neither of which is acceptable. Dilemma is often associated with instinct because when one is faced with a dilemma, he cannot really decide himself confidently without concrete evidences to back him up. Therefore, one depends heavily on his personal instinct to guide him to the path of light.

Many thoughts raced through my mind during these past few days and this is one of my main concerns. Why am I so uptight about it?

I think maybe its just that many unhappy incidents that have happened recently that I started to feel this way. It is up to a point that I cannot bring myself to trust anyone, because they always show me their 'other side', just like a coin... A coin has two sides, a head and a tail, which can also represent a mask of lies and conspiracy and the real personality of one's behaviour.

Maybe... Maybe I think too much? But still, I trust my instinct and my own senses when judging others because I cannot judge a book by its cover! They may have ulterior motive just like a sly fox trying to sneak in and eat you up...

Most of my friends that I have now are not true friends, I felt that they seem to treat me as a tool to aid them in achieving their own personal interests or a substitute to make up for their lack of popularity. They often approach me only when they need help urgently and dumped me aside like a trash when I am no longer useful to them...

A true friend values others, someone who wants others to be enriched in their lives. They are the type of people who willing assist you when you are in need of help and always listen to your sorrows. Most importantly, they value the friendship between you and him. Often, it is difficult to find these trustworthy friends...

Do you want to have someone who appeared to be a helpful and trustworthy but yet they did numerous misdeeds behind your back and they are willing to sacrifice you just for their own interests?

Probably not...

Stress

2011-09-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

Stress is a relationship between problems and the ability of one to cope with. When the difference increases, stress level tends to increase too. Once the stress level builds up beyond your capability to cope with, it produces tensions serious enough to interfere with your daily activities. Often, we focus too much on the outside factors (eg.broken relationship) that contribute to the imbalance rather than our own ability to cope with.

To be frank, stress is always being experienced daily in almost every situation because we always face difficulties! Some happenings may be much more disturbing to you, depending on the degree of difficulties, experiences, your personality and personal circumstances.

Some physical symptoms resulted from stress are as follow:

1.Dizziness
2.Headaches
3.Uncontrollable Muscle Tensions
4.Heart Palpitations
5.Indigestion
6.Involuntary Shivering
7.Fatigue

"Fight or Flight" reaction is the stimulation of one's body in response to stressful events. When your brain perceives danger, hormones adrenaline and cortisol are produced in large quantities. This involuntary nervous system sends electrical impulses (signals) all over your body. The outcome is increase in energy level. That is why we feel stressed and aroused.

Some symptoms of this reaction are:

1.Alertness
2.Increased rate of breathing
3.Muscle tensed
4.Increased sweating
5.Heart rate and blood pressure increased
6.Pale face
7.Bowel contraction

Therefore, you have to learn to relax and having a positive, yet practical, attitude and mindset. There is nothing you can do to alter events affecting you that builds up your stress level significantly, but you can view things from another, yet better perspectives. Sadness and depression are elements that cause grief and helplessness. By converting these negative attitudes to hopes, things will get even better.

Stress management is technique that help individuals to cope with stress effectively, allowing you to assess the degree of stress, understanding the root of problems associated with stress and how are you going to deal with these issues.

Stress management can be classified into:

1.Recognising problems involved.
2.Gauge degree of problems involved.
3.Solving these problems.
4.Understanding potential side effects.

Another way to counter stress is relaxation. Pursuing your interests relieve you from stress because you enjoy doing it. Taking time out for quietness prevents bottling up of tension and frustrations. Also, having self-reflection promotes tranquillity. Things are better taken care of when you think of how to solve these issues.

Assertiveness is another key element in stress management. Assertiveness is a confident affirmation of one's right without threatening the right of another. Instead of bottling up everything, try to express them directly.

To alleviate the impact of stress upon you, you have to manage your time properly. You can manage time with these:

1.Having a time log.
2.Organise your priorities.
-List the most important at the top.
-Least important at the bottom.
-Add recreations to relieve from stress.

Credits:
Book referenced: Stress, how to cope with pressure.
Author: Dr David Lake

Deception?

2011-09-13T11:11:00.000-07:00

I am at the blink of mental breakdown... The pain and agony that I have suffered throughout these days are overwhelming and I just want to avoid them. I want to forget these painful memories that keep intermittent throughout the day. But still, running away does not solve the root of these problems. No matter what, I still have to face them...

Still, I do not want to tell anyone about it because it hurts. I feared hurting my friends, I do not want my friends to worry about me... Bottling up these feelings is just rubbing salt to my wound, its way too painful for me to bear with...

I poured all my sorrows to my blog so that my spirit can be lifted, to numb the pain that has incapacitated me for so long. I do not want to conceal myself behind a mask, hiding my saddened face behind it, though I tried to be optimistic and trying my very best to enjoy the wonders of life.

My facade faltered whenever I lose my temper, showing a monsterous madness behind it. Though, I normally do not lose my temper that easily... However, I can't really control my temper normally ever since I have been enlisted for national service... Is that really the turning point? Am I no longer the pure and innocent person that I was once before?

My future has already been obstructed by a heavy landslide and I have difficulty moving ahead. Is making a detour a really good option? Do I still have faith in myself that I can still make my own mark, or I just have to accept the harsh reality of life?

People often say that life is filled with ups and downs. Once you reach the pit of your life, you will start to climb and soar into the sky like an eagle. But often many people cannot recover from their setbacks because of the fact that it is difficult to start climbing. How possible can a crippled man scale up the altitude of Mount Everest and reach the summit eventually?

Maybe I am thinking too much, too much that my emotions gnaw at my conscience. Too many things happened recently that I start to be weary of my friends. Not only just friends, even the surroundings around me. I seemed to be living in fear, like a bird trapped in a cage and I really do want to sought for condolences and assurance. I ought to stop my imaginations because life may be much more easier without me digging too much into it...

I need to change for the better... If only I am given the opportunity to do so... If only...

SuckSeed ห่วยขั้นเทพ

2011-09-10T05:12:00.000-07:00

Title: SuckSeed ห่วยขั้นเทพ

Opening:18 Aug 2011

Running Time:136 mins

Genre:Comedy

Rating:PG

Distributor:Golden Village Pictures

Director:Chayanop Boonprakob

Cast:Jirayu Laongmanee, Nattasha Nauljam, Pachara Chirathivat, Thawat Pornrattanaprasert

Plot:

For director Chayanop Boonprakob's debut movie, he gathers a cast of first-time actors Pachara Chirathivat, Thawat Pornrattanaprasert and Nattasha Nauljam as his leads. The movie follows the antics of the three secondary school students, as they form a rock band so that they can try to impress girls, but somehow end up failing miserably. The movie also features popular rock songs as well as cameos by several well-known musicians.

Movie Trailer [HD]:

Some Pictures:

My Response:

This is a really impressive movie I have watched. This movie has the mixture of comedy, love story and passion for music. This group of students who formed the rock band failed miserably mainly because they do not have the music talent.

But then, this female student came and changed their lives. But then, their friendship starts to wane when conflicts over their love arises. Even though things start to get sticky and difficult to patch up, they eventually patch up and become successful in their music. They understood that in order to SUCCEED, they got to SUCK first!

After watching this movie, I realised that I have many things to learn from, though it is a movie. I have experienced many turmoils and failures throughout twenty years of my life. Flashes of these horribles memories dashed through my mind and they are the restrictions that prevent me from being successful in my life.

I have to learn to put down my pain and sorrows, and put things in my stride. Only then, will I be able to succeed. This movie has become a motivation that will keep me moving on, no matter how tough things will get because DETERMINATION is the KEY to SUCCESS!

My Personality

2011-08-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

I read upon a post in my friend's blog about 'Interpersonal Communication: Conflict Resolution'. The blog talk about different perspectives of individuals and how conflicts of interests arise between individuals due to differences in the way of thinking. The four different form of communications are passive, aggressive, passive-aggressive and assertive.

From the post, I found out that my personality is passive communication. To be frank, that is not a really good result because as she has commented, running away from conflicts do not really solve the roots of the problems, by allowing people to mistreat in an inappropriate way means inviting more of such treatment in the future. Also it affects relationship because giving away all the time to the spouse may not result in long-term relationship, the other party is doing everything their way.

In her post, she commented that the best form of communication is assertive because individuals state their opinions clearly wothout violating other peoples' rights. She talk about how assertiveness is the fundamental for good mental health and a healthy relationship.

From this, I strived to be assertive and not to be passive because I need to change myself, for my own well-being and long-lasting friendship with my friends.

Democrites

2011-08-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

A year has flown past since my last post... Time really flies...

Many things have happened throughout this period of absence but there isn't much interesting events for me to post upon. Anyway as I browse through my blog recently, I realised that most of my initial posts were not well-written and thus I aim to upload more interesting posts. Stay tuned for them... =X

Well, as I look at my own profile, I look at the name "Democrites". Well, I have used this 'name' for years and it has become my very own unique symbol. Actually, the original 'name' was "Democritus", the 'name' I started out with...

But then, I realised some people started to use the same 'name' and hence, I changed the 'name' to "Democrites". Seriously, I don't really like people to copy my own unique 'name' that I have created myself. Maybe that can be termed as plagarism? If so, I really need to implement copyright. =P

Anyway, thats all for now and I really hope that I can return back to schooling soon after my national service... Please, make it quick!

Life, how do I live my life?

2010-09-24T01:50:00.000-07:00

"A person who cannot genuinely empathize with others can never excel as a leader. So much of what ails society today is the result of too many people in leadership positions who do not or cannot identify with the plight of their fellow men and women. It is in enduring pain and struggles that the earth of our humanity is cultivated. And it is from this earth that a capacity to be genuinely concerned for the welfare of others blossoms."

Quoted from 'Words of Wisdom'.

Well, this pretty much explains everything... No leader can ever earn the respect of their man if they cannot put themselves into the shoes of their fellow mates. A mutual understanding between commanders and man has to be constructed before efficency and respects can be established. I hope and encourage leaders not to be too authorative and ambitious by imposing unrealistic tasks that their fellow man can ever accomplished.

Quite a long time since I ever blog... I have been busy ever since I enlisted into army... When will I ever be freed...?

2010-03-05T05:57:00.000-08:00

The day of apocalypse has arrived.... The release of "A" level results...

Walking back to the college seemed terribly difficult as my legs become 'bulky' and 'heavy' all of the sudden...

Upon entering the hall, my heart pumped as fast as the fires of the machine guns... I can't seem to coordinate my bodily movements... I felt terribly 'sick' and my body started to shiver as though I have been trapped in Antartica all the while... Still, I managed to find to my respective seat in the hall slowly...

When the speaker started the result analysis, I have a mixed feeling of anxiety and frustration...

How do I fare for my "A" level? What grades will I be able to attain? Such thoughts ran through my mind vigorously as I waited impatiently for my result slip...

When my Biology teacher gave me my result slip, my trembling hands grabbed hold of my result slip and I prayed to God...

Thankfully I managed to attain decent grades for my "A" level. Although I did not disclose my grades but I am glad that I have done pretty well...

The end of one episode leads to the start of the new episode...

What will it be?

2010-03-04T01:53:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is one of the biggest day of my life...

The release of "A" level results.

Well, I hope that I can score decent grades for my subjects and I can enrol into university...

Best of luck to me.

2009-07-23T06:22:00.000-07:00

Yo! Back blogging! =)

Well I went to watch Harry Potter and The Half-blood Prince last Saturday with my sister. The movie is quite okay. Didn't expect it to be too romantic. 0.0

Hahas anyway I still enjoy the movie. =) During the movie, I heard a boy speaking to his mom. This is what he said...

He: Mom, I am falling asleep!

Well time elapsed too fast... Way too fast...

2009-06-22T02:34:00.000-07:00

I went to the Mt Faber SAFRA to swim today... Well... bumped into a weird encounter there...=.=

A man asked me to help him to pick up his watch in the deep pool.

This is how it goes:

Man: Sorry, can you help me pick up my thing?
Me:(look into the pool and saw a watch), Okay I will get it for you.

He seemed to be in a difficulty to get the watch himself. I pick it up for him.

After swimming a round,

Man:Sorry,can you help me pick up my watch?

This time it is in another pool...
I helped to pick up again...
This goes on for a few more times... =.=
Then I realised he dropped it on purpose! Also he can pick it up himself! He SMILED at me too!

Man:Sorry, can you help me pick it up?

This time... i simply ignored him.

Well I guess he must be either practically making a fool out of me or he must be 'hmm hmm', you know what I mean. 0_0

This is a message my study mate sent to me, quite funny^^

Well this is how it goes:

Before marriage,

He:Yes! I've been waiting for this moment!
She:Do you want to leave me?
He:No! Don't even think about it!
She:Do you love me?
He:Of course! Over and over!
She:Have you ever cheated on me?
He:No! Why are you even asking that?
She:Will you kiss me?
He:Every chance I get!
She:Will you hit me?
He:Are you crazy? I'm not that kind of person.
She:Can I trust you?
He:Yes..
She:Darling!!!

After marriage, read from bottom to top.^^

2009-06-21T21:32:00.001-07:00

Yoyoyo! Finally back to blogging! Its been a long time since I last blog 0.0

Anyway many things happened during this period... Thinking about them... I really do not know where to start from... Well... I just hoped that things will be better now...

I saw someone very important to me two days ago... He was my Primary School friend... A very good friend...I wanted to say hi to him but he seemed not able to recognise me... Three years friendship ended like this just because we lost contact with each other for five years?

Friendship seems to be vulnerable and once you lose contact... Everything ends...

Face up to reality?

2009-02-20T23:57:00.000-08:00

Finally back! It has been a long time since I last update my blog. Too many work to do... Oh well I was researching on Chimera. I got a shock when I witness a horrible image, an ear on the mouse body!

2008-12-23T08:22:00.000-08:00

Today I have attended the Philharmonic Youth concert. It was the best concert I have attended so far. I have to admit that it was much better than the OBOG concert...

I saw Mr Tay, our band's clarinet tutor, performing just now. He was a soloist of oboe. Well, I dare say that he was excellent. He played the running notes with his oboe for long phrases during his soloing. He did not make any mistake although his face turned extremely red at the later part of the soloing. Looks like playing the oboe with running notes is quite a feat! Good job!

Lets talk about the overal performance of the band...

The band was very organised and well-trained. I enjoyed all the pieces, especially Persis Overture and El Camino Real. These two pieces really triggered my past memories, both happy and unhappy incidents...

I have only a word to conclude: Excellent!

Something really angered me today...

Why are people so anxious about boarding and alighting a bus? Why are they so selfish as to take two seats and deprive others of having the seats, especially the needy?

I really hope that people will become more considerate and help out with one another so as to build a better society as a whole. This will truly bring about happiness, especially to yourself...

2008-12-19T01:48:00.000-08:00

Yay finally back to blogging! =) Just back from band camp on 15th, 16th and 17th December.
Got a little tired and slept till the afternoon yesterday...

Lets discuss about the band camp...

The campers from the secondary schools are really enthusiastic, they are active during the camp... =)

Well, there are some problems we faced during the camp. For the drinks, they were quite diluted but luckily we have decided to add more syrup to sweeten the drinks. The food were quite nice, especially the curry chicken rice. Yummy!

Unfortunately, i scalded my leg by the boiling water while trying to prepare milo for the supper on the first day of camp... Luckily it was not as serious as we have expected and it recovered within the day...

The mass games on the second day consist of water games, a tradition of JJ games. Quite fun although the organisation and rotation of the games were a little inefficient, because many campers were restless while waiting too long for the next game...

Cleaning up of the water dispensers after every meal was quite a feat as we have to make sure that all the stains of the sweet drinks were cleaned up thoroughly so as it will not invite 'gatecrashers' into the water dispensers...

After every meal, we have to clean up the tables as there are stains of sweet drinks and bread bits. We, the food committee, enjoyed cleaning them up because we felt a sense of bonding and belonging...

Well I want to thank the campers because they were really helpful. They cleared up their food after every meal...

I enjoyed this camp. =)

2008-12-13T05:05:00.000-08:00

Today I was in a train going back home after band practice when I saw someone very familiar... He seemed to look like one of my Fairfield friend, named Daniel. I look at at him but he seemed to be unable to recognise me... Guess I make a mistake...

2008-12-11T08:27:00.000-08:00

Today I went for the OBOG concert. It was awesome and probably the best concert I have attended so far. The players were well prepared and it was near perfect...

Lets talk about the overall comment:

The concert is well organised with quite a good speaker and the members knew their sequences (sitting arrangements) and changed their places at the appropriate pace.The band played nice pieces eg. Jazz and also played them at the appropriate pace...

They showed the dynamics clearly and their timing were very precise. They emphasised on the value of every note in every bar...

I am glad that I attended this concert. =)

2008-12-07T09:09:00.000-08:00

I have just watched Resident Evil 'Degeneration'. It was a cool and thrilling movie. It is something similar to the 'House of the Dead' and it is simply awesome.

I guess there may be a second part for this movie as the ending ends with scientists collecting the remains of the 'Boss' zombie... May be trying to research on it...

The story has much suspense as the true culprit is the one we have least anticipated. Anyway I can't wait to watch this movie again. Perhaps next time...

2008-12-07T07:11:00.000-08:00

Today I watched a soccer match between Singapore and Myanmar. The match was all right at the beginning but disappointing at the end. The team Myanmar got a little too rough at the later part of the soccer match and the kind of anger that they have after they lost the match...

I played pet society just now and it was fun. Very happy and it cheered me up.

2008-12-05T07:43:00.000-08:00

Today I went for the Fairfield Symphonic Band concert. It was awesome! Everyone has improved quite alot since I last listened to them. However, they have made some minor errors during the performance...

These are the errors I have noticed:
1. The flute section is not in tune.
2. The sound made by the trumpters are still quite weak although they have made up the loss by having more people.
3. The cymbal in the percussion section clashes very softly.
4. The band did not express dynamics in most of the pieces.
5. Some members played wrong notes.
6. I have heard the 'squeaking' sound from the clarinetists in some pieces.

Overall, the band played well and i enjoyed the performance.

2008-12-04T08:03:00.000-08:00

I am going to watch my juniors having a concert tomorrow at Singapore Conference Hall. It is going to be a memorable experience and it has been some time since I last heard them playing their french horns...

Details of their concert are as follow:
Fairfield Methodist Secondary School
5th December 2008
7.30pm
Singapore Conference Hall
Ticket cost: S$10

They are going to play very nice pieces such as Arioso by Bach, Concerto De Amore, Sunken Village and many selectable pieces like mamma mia or christmas carols.

2008-12-03T01:05:00.000-08:00

I have finally completed my blog! Very happy. I want to thank the creator for sharing such a wonderful template and also Sedrilyn for helping out with my blog.

Well I have watch both REC and Twilight some time ago. These are the two wonderful movies that I recommended. For REC, there is another movie named 'quarantine' and it is the remake of REC. Although the two movies shown similar scences of the people being trapped in the building, however they have quite a different story in the way the people died in the building by fast moving zombies. Don't forget to watch them!

Introduction

2008-12-01T08:18:00.000-08:00

Hello! This is the first time I am blogging... Very happy =) Will update with more information soon. Hahas...